Respect As My Twin Flame

Merry Meet and Welcome to you magickal souls!!!!

I know I wrote about Bodily Autonomy as a twin flame last week, but I feel like Respect is tied into this and wanted it to have its own post. This is inspired by the Money As My Twin Flame workshop hosted by That Witch Karena At The Witch's Inn and the post I wrote about my experience.

So here's what I explored about Respect as my twin flame:

What would a better relationship with Respect do for me?

Ace of Hearts

When I first saw this card, I smiled because it's all about love. In today's modern age, hearts are sent to convey the emotion of caring for and about someone and there's a whole day devoted to showing love to those you care about too.

I love that Alice is shown holding the piglet or Pig-Baby because this made me think of healing my inner child, almost maternally holding them and showing them the love I didn't get during my childhood.

I feel as if a better relationship with Respect would bring more love and more joy into my life because I'd have more space and energy for them.

Do I have the energy budget to hold the love from Respect?

Queen of Clubs

With this card, I love that the baby is still present, but it is only part of it. The Duchess is shown to be the one holding it this time, and her headpiece looks a bit like a heart. It should be noted that this is before the baby turns into a pig (sorry, spoilers).

I feel as if I have plenty of energy in my budget to hold the love from respect.

I have the choice of how to to be because the love from Respect may need to be serious like the Duchess but it could also be loud and unable to ignore like the baby.

Regardless, I can relax because I am held by the love from Respect anyway.

Do I chase the idea of Respect, or do I attract it?

4 of Hearts

With this card, I feel as if I don't chase it but I don't attract it either. Instead, I wait for it, like the Carpenter and the Oysters.

Within this card, I feel as if I am shown as the Carpenter, sat on a beach, where the flowing tide comes and goes, and this is what I envision Respect to be like. It is something that flows, that can increase or decrease in size depending on what else is going on.

The Carpenter is sat and appears to be looking off to the side and towards something unseen, as if Respect is something that I cannot currently see for some unknown reason.

Where did I learn this pattern from?

6 of Hearts, 3 of Diamonds & 3 of Clubs

With the 6 of Hearts, I felt as if it was saying that I learned this pattern from being different in an obvious way. I don't remember knowing anyone at school who lived with their (incredibly) strict grandparents. I wasn't as sociable as others and kept to myself, which went against the others in my classes. Usually, I would know school material before it was taught in the main lessons because I did "revision" books during my summer holidays (not by my own personal choice) and so I learned everything ahead of time. I have also learned this pattern from wanting to just be myself, regardless of the opinions and/or feelings of others.

With the 3 of Diamonds, I felt as if this card was saying that I learned this pattern by standing or sitting back and letting other people leave. I was taught as a child that I needed to be quiet and spend time with only the adults, that I needed to learn to be ignored. My own desires were always ignored so I learned that anything to do with me was meant to be unseen, rather like the Carpenter and the Oysters. But in this card, I am Alice and watching the White Rabbit run off away from me. I had to be an observer rather than a participant in my own life. I wasn't allowed to be curious about anything so adventures to "Wonderland" were an alien concept to me - I was never even allowed to go on school trips abroad.

With the 3 of Clubs, I felt as if this card was saying that I was always being misunderstood. I was but I was also suffering in silence because no one ever seemed to want to hear what I was saying or provide actual help. I was in constant pain, mentally and emotionally because I wasn't respected. I was forced to be an observer when in reality, I wanted nothing more than to be part of Life. My own choices and desires weren't respected as I was given no other option but to go along with whatever my nan had already told people. I was kept away from others when all I desired was to be accepted and part of everything that happened. I learned this pattern from my childhood.

If Respect were a sound, what would it be?

I struggled with this initially but after sitting with it a while, I settled on the idea of a whistle. Not the sound we make individually with our own mouths but the metal/plastic ones used by sports referees around the world. The kind of whistle that cannot be ignored, but can also be used to warn or stop events/people in their tracks. The kind of whistle that demands attention from everyone.

I did ask a close friend what they thought Respect would be as a sound and they said a thunderclap. I can see this and understand the reasoning behind it because it sounds and doesn't care who or what it may be disrupting. It wants, and again demands, attention.

What would I want it to be?

This was easier to answer and I think I acually came up with this before I even knew the previous answer. What I thought of was an orchestral symphony where each instrument had a solo part within the whole piece. Each instrument would have a chance to be heard and seen without apology or shame, but instead with Respect.

Can I raise my vibration to match it and increase my energy budget?

5 of Spades

With this card, I feel as if the answer is:

Yes, you can but it will take work and effort to achieve it.

The idea of work and effort comes from the young man depicted here, the son of Father William (from Alice's Adventures in Wonderland). He appears to be shown as a farmer with a pitchfork ready to toss hay or muck out an animal's stall. Farmers work incredibly hard, if not the hardest, for a good harvest which is dependent on the conditions while growing.

There may be some teamwork involved because the young man isn't facing me but is looking off at something I can't see.

If Respect was a smell, what would it be?

With this question, I feel as if Respect would be something earthy but doesn't immediately overpower other smells, or attempt to do so. It would instead be something that could work with another smell or group of smells. This smell would just stand separately on its own, to be appreciated in its own right.

Where have I experienced this?

5 of Diamonds

With this card, there are two possibilities shown here:

If I am depicted as what I believe to be the soldier, then this card shows that, especially as a child, I felt I had to be unmoving, unfazed and unbothered by the noise of others. Not because I didn't care but because I couldn't outwardly show I cared for fear of a worse reaction to my emotions.

If I am depicted as Humpty-Dumpty, then this card shows that, particularly as an adult, I have had to shout and make lots of noise so that others listen and/or pay attention to me.

This card is two parts of my life.

When I hear "Respect", is my reaction nervous or calm?

I don't think I react in a nervous way when I hear "Respect". I do think I am calm and determined though. Calm because any other reaction doesn't help me. Determined because I will defend my right to Respect but I will also defend the rights of others to Respect too.

What embodiment practice could help source and sustain "Respect" within me, clearing old energy and expanding my energy budget?

When I sat down to think about this, I wasn't sure what practice could help. But then I thought about yoga. It's all about movement, removing (or clearing) the old energy and holding space that would allow me to expand my energy budget. It's also a way to show Respect for my own body. Another practice is dance, particularly in a group because each dancer has their individual parts to play with the possibility of solos. However, I will definitely be adding yoga to my days because when I tried it, I rather enjoyed it and I miss it.

How does Respect care for me?

10 of Spades

With this card, I felt as if Respect was depicted as the deer and I was Alice walking along together with it.

Because of this, I feel as if Respect is a calm life companion that won't let me lose my way for too long, won't let me feel alone as I walk my path through Life which might also be called Wonderland.

Respect cares by letting me lean on it for support as I make my way through Life. It also wants me to know it cares by showing me how to be confident and have courage.

With this added in, I feel as if Respect wants nothing more than to comfort me and that on its own is care and full of love to me.

How do I care for Respect?

8 of Diamonds

With this card, again, I feel as if I am depicted as Alice and Respect is shown as the Gryphon.

As Alice, I am sat with Respect/Gryphon in a companionable way. It's almost as if I'm listening to what Respect has to tell me and I'm doing so without interrupting or otherwise disturbing the flow from the Gryphon.

Even though Alice doesn't look as if she's talking, the image of this card gives me the feeling that she is mid-conversation, that she's waiting patiently for her turn to talk.

So I care about Respect by listening and hearing what it has to say to me, being in constant conversation.

How can I care for Respect better?

2 of Clubs

Within this card, I was unable to tell who was Respect and who was me because this card depicts Tweedle-Dum and Tweedle-Dee. They are brothers and although they quarrel within Through the Looking-Glass, they are devoted to each other and would defend the other from any perceived threat that came from anyone else. Because of this, the Tweedles are showing me that I can care for Respect better by holding to my own boundaries and paying attention to what else is happening around me.

There is an element of agreeing with others but also of having my own voice be heard as well.

I learned a lot about Respect from this exercise, but I also learned a lot about myself. Every time I do this or something similar, I learn how to integrate my Shadows. This is a form of Shadow Work to me that is so satisfying and something that I can do when I choose rather than on a kind of specific schedule.

I hope this inspires you to look at what you could do to deepen your own relationship with Respect, or even to work with That Witch Karena (which you can do here).

Peace and love to all!!!!